I made another discovery. For the past couple of years my life has been stuck somewhere between neutral and first gear. Despite the fact that there may have been external contributing factors, I realize that the only way to become unstuck was to take responsibility for myself. So I did. I'm back at school part time, working on a post-graduate writing certificate. I'm working my way up to second or maybe even third gear. My ultimate goal is to reach a gear that is high enough to allow me to engage the cruise control (believe me, it will make me happy).
Milestones have to be met I know; stumbling may occur - but ultimately, I need to do it.
P.S. I will mos def keep a record of my progress and post the results...
"Do or do not. There is no try." - Yoda